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I remember I used to spend a lot of time on here. Seems my last post on here was back in Jan. of 08. I guess that wasn't too far back though.
I suppose Im still the same old me. Lazy, video-game crazy, boy-obsessed (non-real, of course) and totally weird. I suppose I wanted to start this again cause I wanted something to look back on, you know? It's interesting to look back through the posts and see what happened and what I said about things.
Well, right now I'm just playing Legend of Dragoon on my comp. I would actually be playing it on my ps2 but..well, Ivan has my PS2. See, Ivan has my PS2 and Persona 4 and my gamecube controller. Scrogin has has my Tales of the Abyss game and I have his anime Rahxephon and his game Persona 3 FES. I'm about to loan Chris my 360 and Ivan's Tales of Vesperia lol Thank god there are roms, isos and emulators <3 Oh, and Brittany has my FF Chronicles (FF4 and Chrono Trigger) and Tales of Destiny.
ugh I've been sick these past couple of days. It sucks. I got a cough on Saturday and then Sunday my body started hurting. Monday I stayed home and Tuesday i was woke up with a 103.4 fever so mom made me stay home. The doctor gave me some mediciene which, get this, it's the best part, the medicene has a side effect of making me depressed. So Wednesday, the last deadline day for the newspaper, I was crying. It was horrible. I almost cried during school and held it back then, after school when we were working, I started crying and had to go into the girl's restroom to hide it. No one caught on, thankfully, and Lynch made me leave early since she could tell I was still sick. I spent that whole afternoon pretty much just bawling my eyes out in my bed. Mom even stayed home from her church meeting. I eventually drifted off to sleep and didn't cry again after I woke up.
You know what the weirdest part is? I had a convo with Cell in my head O_o He was scolding me for crying so much. He told me not to cry anymore cause it was pretty stupid to. And then I woke up and I didn't cry anymore.
I feel horrible though. Not cause Im sick but.. everyone around me is working so hard and Im not. Chris worked off his butt to get accepted into UT and what am I doing? I don't even have my hours filled out for NHS yet, and I know that's due soon. probably next month. And I only have a few hours done. Yet I'm not doing anything to get more. And Im letting my test grade of a 70 go in Eco cause I don't want to go in the morning and do test corrections. I dropped PreCal cause I don't like it, so that wont help in raising my GPA. I haven't for sure deicded on a college or anything. I don't want to end up like my siblings, yet that seems to be where I'm headed. I'm afraid that I wont do anything until it's too late and than I'll be screwed. I just sit here and play video games as usual, as if the world is going to wait until I'm ready to move. This isn't some video game where the end boss waits for you to raise chocobos, race them, collect materia and basically run around the place until you're reading to face him. But it's not like I can talk to anyone about it. I know their answer already. Too bad life can't be a bit more simple. and less costly.
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