| | so, this is what heartbreak feels like. On a small scale, anyway.
This is pretty much my last safe haven place, cause no one reads this thing anyway unless i send a link asking them to.
and maybe its not even heartbreak more like...so thats its feeling.
see, i helped a guy with his relationship problem. cause his girl had cheated on him. and then we sort of grew close. i mean...he knows i liked him more than a friend, i told him so! and...ok, so i dont exactly remember him saying the same, but i know there was something. i mean...well...it was just things we did together, you know.
anyway, i get back on after two weeks of an Oblivion addiction and the first thing he tells me is that him and his girl have been discussing engagement rings..
ENGAGEMENT RINGS
Its like...whoa...what? run that by me again.
so i ask him what I missed...and he said nothing.
again...what?
so i get this feeling. i sort of just sit there and i feel really cold inside and i can feel some tears. they dont come out, but they're building up.
Im not going to say anything to him about it or question him or anything, just act like nothing happened. Why? cause truth be told, I wasnt sure I actually liked him a lot. i mean, of course i do, he's a great friend...probably could have been more if we spent time together in person, which we were going to do when he moved down here. but right now i dont really feel any...strong attraction for him or something like that, you know?
but the feeling is still there. like i said, it's a 'so thats it' feeling. maybe a bit of 'what was i to you' feeling as well.
but writing about it has helped so..
back to homework, i suppose.
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| | Posted 1/8/2008 4:39 PM - 43 Views - 2 eProps - 1 Comment
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